Winter's Summer

Ok. so I haven't been on in a while.. kinda weird how I wanted to get on but never did. Anyway. This week, finals, as most people who will read this know. Thursday classes as usual. I did go to class until about 11-12. I aced my Computer Programming final!! haha YES! Anyway, then I went to lakeshore bought batteries for my mom's present, then went to town. haha. I cut my first class Thursday. Pathetic you people say, but I've never saw cutting as a possiblity for me so.. its a big deal. Not cutting again until the end of the year. I swear.

My Mom's birthday was on Thursday too. Gave gift, sang birthday songs, ate cake, the whole whatever. Then went online for the first time in while. Played Texas holdem, then monopoly, then pool. haha. Another thing my iPod started working when I tried to get it fixed. It was so weird, so no more iPod nano for me! I'll stick with the 20g thanks.

I'm pretty sure I'm addicted to Daphne Loves Derby. They're just too cool. I wish I could have gone to the Saratoga show, but finals.. damn..

I'm Feeling Better Now..

Alright. So I'm feeling better from the last post I made. I was kinda pissed off and stuff.. Depressed, stressed, etc. It's still going to be a while until i'm back to being "happy", so don't count on it in the near future. I'm starting to sound like mikekim... how conformist of me.

Anyways, finals are comming up and I'm doing squat to get ready for them. I'm just that good I guess. Or I'm not motivated at all, which sucks. I really flunked my Korean final Friday. That should get me motivated, but it's not.. Sucha shame. Instead, listening to Jack Johnson's new single - "Upside Down" from the Curious George Soundtrack. How rad is that? So listen to it somewhere; It's good at healing the soul.

Jack Johnson - Upside Down
Who's to say whats impossible?
Have they forgot this world keeps spining?
And with each new day I can feel a change in everything
And as the surface breaks, reflections fade
But in some ways they remain the same
And as my mind begins to spread its wings
There's no stopping curiosity
I wanna turn the whole thing..

Upside down
I'll find the things they say just can't be found
I'll share this love I find with everyone
We'll sing and dance to Mother Nature's song
I don't want this feeling to go away..

Who's to say I can't do everything
But I can try and as I roll along
I begin to find
Things aren't always just what they seem
I wanna turn the whole thing..

Upside down
I'll find the things they say just can't be found
I'll share this love i find with everyone
We'll sing and dance to Mother Nature's song
This world keeps spinning
And there's no time to waste
Well it all keeps spinning spinning round and round

Upside down
We'll sing and dance and spead this love around
I don't want this feeling to go away

Please don't go away
Please don't go away
Please don't go away
Is this how it's suppose to be?..
Is this how it's suppose to be?..

More Mikekim stuff: lyrics.. I should stop reading this blog.

January 17, 2006 after a meeting.

There's nothing quite like the burn of betrayal...

followed by the confirmation of inferiority.

AOL Instant Messager

O.K. As of today, I will no longer have AOL Instant Messager on my computer. One of two things will happen: I will now use AIM Express, or I will use my brother's computer to use this Instant Messaging System. I now have come up with a third possibly: Skype. Of course, nobody will have Skype, so there is no real reason to go download Skype. Is there anybody who uses Skype anyway?

I have also been told by my lovely father that I must now think seriously about what I am to do during the three month recess that is summer. I have no idea. I've offered to go to Yale, study abroad, C.I.T. postion, or get a job. I'm leaning toward getting a job, but I'm still not sure what job I should get. I need input on this subject ... later of course.

Geez. lately I've been really depressed. I think I'll stop here.

Gotta remember to be happy.

Wishing the Impossible

Well, today was exteremely uneventful. I did nothing mostly.. Just usual school stuff. I got a perfect for that career thing. The note on the top read, "Excellent work on this assignment - one of the best in all the classes. " I also finally took the time to figure out my finals schedule, so now I can gripe about it in specifics.

I have been lately wishing I wasn't me. I wish I was a juinor. Junior people I know seem to have such facinating lives. Let's see.. Mike Kim, Yumi Choung, Aaron Suk, Leslie, Chris Shinn, and all of their friends seem to lead very eventful, interesting lives. Mine pales in comparison. I'm proably blowing all out of proportion, but that's how I see it. Makes me wish I was a juinor..

I'm not saying I don't like my friends, because I do. It's just that I think life with them would make life worth a whole lot more to me.

The New Year finds me...

Well, the New Year is here. 2006. Gotta good feeling about it.. but it hasn't been living up to my expectations. Its very disheartening. What's also disheartening is that everybody has put up new years resolutions.. I don't have any. I'm a bad person..

On to sligtly less mundane stuff, I have broken away from Jack Johnson's In Between Dreams and have moved on. Namely, Daphne Loves Derby. Particularly, this one song, Simple, Starving To Be Safe. It is not a metaphor to my life.. well maybe it is. I don't know. I like it because it sounds good. Like, "holy hell! how come I've missed Daphne Loves Derby?" good. really.

I'm lonely.