Thank God It's Over!

It's too hard to maintain both a blogger and a xanga. One of them has got to go, I just don't know which one(probably this one. You guys are probably better off looking here instead-click). Xanga is over two years old now. As soon as day 1000 hits, I'm getting a new one.

Wow, I wrote out everything and now its gone. I'm now going to attempt rewrite the entire fucking thing. It went a little something like this:

Let's start with yesterday shall we? I had all of my tests yesterday; four different tests and one art project to do. I had a Physics, APUSH, Comedy, and Pre-Cal. After my last test I could have shouted "Fuck Yeah! Screw You Teach!" but because I'm a goody-goody, I didn't do that.

Today was not as great as other Winterfaires. I woke up at the crack of 8:40. It was during my routine morning clean up, my left contact was ripped in half. I can't imagine how that happened, considering that they're hard lens contacts. So I was forced to wear glasses and took the conveniently timed bus to school. At school, I signed in for my classes in random order, got some food, tried to save my failure of a painting, found out my Pre-Calc test grade (93), saw the best college kid in the world aka Iljin, witnessed Ms. Wold and the rest of the Social Science Dept "dance", and turned in my S&S app. Pray to God I get in. From the hours of 2:00 to appx. 6:45, I hung out with by far the best seniors I have had the pleasure of meeting: mike kim, chase cho, chris young, and tom...something. I now realize that I've been deprived. Give me some Guns 'n Roses! Afterwards, I went to my Court of Honor where everything went wrong. There I learned that many of my friends have done the deed and one is openly gay.

Reflection Time! Because I know you wonderful, thoughtful people love this kind of crap. All I've got to say is that I don't want to pay for the same contact again. That would just suck balls. Also, I found out quite a bit at the Court of Honor. I'm the only one who takes scouting seriously, making me feel like a fag. Also that I need to talk to my friends more. They are awesome people despite the picture I've help you paint of them.

Good News/Bad News

I always hated it when people say good news/bad news. It always seems that the bad news always outweighs the good news. And my situation is no exception.

Good News: I got a 3.33, the same as last trimester.

Bad News (and there's lots of bad news): Mom still disappointed; Dad might blow in combination between this and Andrew's 3.0; Mom still keeps up "SF State" while my cousins in LA get straight As and want to go to UCLA.

Got a lot to do between now and Winterbreak:
APUSH Test
APUSH Book Project
Comedy & Sat essay
Korean work, 2 weeks worth
Pre-Calculus, 2 weeks worth

Ahh doesn't this season make you want to not care? 'Tis the season....

So You had a Bad Day...

Because I know you've missed me griping about my life and whatnot, I bring you an update. Now, if you haven't noticed, I usually write when really do have something to gripe about. So this time, its fcuking school.

Today, I found out that I'm gonna get a 3.0. That might be pretty good for some, but then I'm a closet nerd. It's also my lowest GPA of my high school career. I'm beginning to think that I might have to go somewhere local if I want to go to college. Not good. From now on, no more naps, and no more procrastinating. At least try not to. Which will be a challenge. I also semi-cut APUSH today. I missed a mod of class twice in the same semester. That is why I hate C code classes. Worrying about Winterball. It's more stress than fun really. Compounded, it's enough to make anybody unhappy. No, I lie. Enough to make just me unhappy.

Late schedule... whatever. Gotta stay off the AIM and myspace. And the soccer. especially the soccer.

Stranger than Fiction.

I've missed a couple posts, since I've stopped using blogger for my default. Go to my xanga to catch up, if you really want to.

Today marked the beginning of the K.A.W.E. - Kick Ass Week End. And so far, it's been awesome. Me and my brother went to Japantown with Gen and had some crepes and then watched Stranger than Fiction. My own critique? I thought it was a really good movie. Will Ferrell is usually known for comedies with a lot of farce(look it up) but he steps out of that in this movie. Its one of those sappy movies. No Action. No Adventure. Just a lot of questions about our existence with a touch of comedy now and then. Recommended for saps like me. Or those who liked Click apparently... Favorite Quote? something along the lines of...

"My story is about a man who doesn't know that he's going to die. But if he knows that he's going to die, and still accepts his death anyway, isn't that somebody worth saving?"

Excite Me.

Today is Sunday. Stayed through the night. again. I need to be asleep by now. Damn. So did pretty much nothing all day. Then went to the Brother's Restaurant on Geary. That stuff is always good. Then immediately after went to the play, Nick Nickelby. Wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. Second half was much, much better. Got home and been chillin' for a few hours. Gotta do homework tomorrow. What a downer.

So I'm goin' to Winterball this year I guess. I totally didn't expect to go, but surprise! Sadie Hawkins dances are always nice. Though they make me feel slightly less masculine. Anyway, see you there? Goin' to Europe too. Can't wait. It's a shame its during the summer though. I've always wanted to visit in the winter, particularly winter time. It's sounds so nice. Rick Steve's European Christmas doesn't help.

Homework and responsibility should curl up and die in some ditch.

Untitled.

Today, as I have told numerous people, I woke up two minutes after school started. So I tore out of the house and got to school in 15 minutes. A new record. Didn't go see the play today. Such a shame. So I might see it either tomorrow or Sunday. Bought the ticket and everything, just for some extra credit.

That "cut" messed up my psyche. I've gotta do better in school, or I'm never gonna go to Europe. And a bunch of other stuff. Bleh. Best of luck to those who are gonna take their Suck Ass Tests tomorrow... er today. That's another thing, I gotta go to sleep sooner. Like right now is already too late. dangg. From now on, I've gotta try harder.

Create Yourself

...'nuff said.

PBS Rocks My Socks.

So today is technically Sunday. Daylight savings time ends tonight. I can't wait to get that extra hour to save my procrastinating ass. I've got so much homework. bleh. not fun. not fun indeed.

So anyway, it looks like I'm gonna go to Europe with People to People. I had my interview with them today and the guy said, "Congratulations! Your going to Europe!" I was like.. "eh". The thrill has kinda worn off because there hasn't been much going on with it. I'm not as pumped as before. Until I saw Rick Steves on PBS. That guy is my hero. Forreals. He is so cool. I don't know why, but he was awesome, at least to me. It has sparked the damp fuel for this program, metaphorically. I've forgotten that PBS was so kick-ass. I kid not. It shows some worthwhile stuff, unlike other channels that show useless crap. If I'm gonna waste time watching TV, I should at least learn something while I do it. I pledge to only watch Discovery and PBS from now on. And with that decision, I've just reached the ripe old age of 45.

So I've been playing more than usual. I've been playing forward lately as well. Apparently, it's because I'm fast and I can use that to score goals, I guess. Now all I've got to do is prove it. I'm gonna work extra hard from now on. While on the topic of soccer, my dad spent the last month, excluding the last week, playing in Korea. He was in a stadium and everything. He even got warm ups and jerseys. I don't think I've ever been prouder.

Failure All Around!

Remember when I said that I hated driving with Dad? I hate driving with Mom even more. She makes corrections way too late and then lets me ride it out, literally, and then yelling at me for it. It's epsecially bad when she doesn't make a correction at all and then conutinues the yelling. It's stupid. I didn't talk to her at all tonight because she still blames me for continuously making mistakes. OK, I'm at fault, but is it my fault I'm so high strug cause she's right there? I'm never driving with her again. I think she lives to see me fail.

Speaking of failing, I failed in the Burton game today. I got four perfect shots at goal and blew all four of them. I friggin hate myself. I was so fcukin' close and then I stutter step and let the ball get ahead of me. I don't know why they keep putting me at foreward though. It's embarrassing, really. I should get me skill up to par if I ever want to score a goal.

I also "failed" at school. Some people will call me a nerd and an over-achiever for thinking that 3.33 is a low GPA. I mean, my brother's is higher than mine! It's insanity. What ticks me off is that I've got three B+. I need only one small push and POOF I got an A. Geez. What is with these teachers? Especially Fahey. I hate his grading system with a passion. At least I got an A- in APUSH. That was the highlight of my report card. Grades as follows:

• Physics - B+
• Korean - B+
• APUSH - A-
• Comedy - A-
• Art - B+
• Pre-Cal - B-

More nice news: PSATs tomorrow, didn't look over the booklet. Got an interview for the 28th for People to People.

People to People

So this last week feels like nothing. Mostly because of the three day weekend. I love three day weekends. So... school update...I stopped trying to understand Fahey in class. He makes absolutely not sense what so ever. Its so goddamn boring. I wish I was stressing more. That would mean that I'm trying. But I'm not, so I must not be.

It sucks even more in that now I got a goal to do well this year. If I do well, then I will be able to travel to Britian and France with People to People. No, it's not a scam. Alexis Kim and Marc Washington both went on it, so I guess it's legit. But then there's so much stuff to do to get there. As follows:

• 2250 or better on the SAT I
• 700 or better on SAT II in US History and two others (Math II, Chem?)
  
• Finish my Eagle Project before the summer
• End both semesters with a 3.83 or better

Half of it's near impossible, but I'll find a way to do it. I'm determined. Although it's off to a rough start. I think I got a 3.5-ish. B+ in Korean. I'm so dead. Anyway, I'm willing and ready. Wish me luck, cause it's gonna be a tough year.

Wrong!

I remember why I thought I was being oh so productive this weekend! Well, I started thinking about Hapkido again. Yes, again. As in "should I go back or not" again. The reason it's come up again is because I saw Contour. After watching it, I remember why I started in the beginning. I wanted to look badass - so simple. I wanted to look cool, I guess. It was fun too. It's just that I don't have the time. Also was friggin' boring! Nothing to do as a black belt! GEEZ! I was thinking maybe start teaching during the winter and summer, but I gotta study SAT stuff in the winter, not to mention an eagle project! dammit! somebody give me some ideas! Anyway, yeah. That was my great epiphany.

I've been looking up guitar accessories online. I was thinking of changing my pickguard either brown or black and changing the pickups too. I need new strings too, but I can get those later. Pickups are a pain to choose. So many different choices! My God! Nobody needs that much sound, except Jimi Hendrix.

What's more, it's taking time away from studying. It's monday and I haven't started any homework whatsoever! I hate three day weekends in that they let me procrastinate into an oblivion. I still have that test tomorrow and hella id cards to do. I swear...

HMMM....

So it's been an eventful week since I last posted anything on this.... thing. So much so I can't remember anything. I can't remember much before yesterday. Yesterday, went to school at aroun 10 and hung out. Went on the roof twice. Then me and Chase tried free running and flips on the grass. Today, I went to soccer for the first time in like a year. I should go more often. I don't know why I had such a great time this week, but I did. It's weird.

Got hella homework this weekend too. Got physics problem set, 50 IDs for APUSH, a test tues for C&S, finish shapes in space for Art, and catch up in Pre-Cal. Got my work cut out for me. Only thing to worry about is the 50 cards. Gotta work on my core... starting to think in track terms now. Geez. Maybe start lifting. Except I have no idea what to do.

Keep those project ideas coming!!

Camerafone is definitely "chill-music".

Things are cooling down... sortof.

So yea... still not caring about grades. I've got some physics, some korean, some apush, some comedy, and some math. All five core subjects. Geez. I think the work load has shut down the emotional part of my brain. It's just not responding to stimuli anymore.

So today, got some stuff done with the troop. more than most other senior patrol leaders actually. Feel pretty proud of myself. Only now, not so much. I gotta do an Eagle Project and I've been thinking of some stuff, and then my dad tells me there are Eagle projects available to help beautify Camp Ida Smith the girl scout camp. I don't know why it ticked me off, but it did. I just want to do something with more impact. If I did something for the church, I would rather have the satifaction of knowing that people appreciate it. Instead of having to make a crappy camp less crappy. I don't know. Feedback please.

Also, If anybody has any big projects they need done at a church, community center, etc. in the city, let me know. I'm trying to find things to avoid Ida Smith.

Contour is officially the best movie in the world. You should see it.

Week 5?

hmm... let's see. I slacked off this week. the most productive thing i did all week was finish wold's ID cards. Which equals a ton of homework this weekend. also bombed a korean test and a comedy and satire essay. whatever.

seeing contour tonight. people who don't know what it is, go to the 4 star theater and find out. Unlike crappy people who don't go cause they're too damn cheap.

Rally wasn't so bad this year. Actually, it was pretty good. hmm... what else is there? got my stereo converter - that makes me happy. and the this providence cd - makes me even happier.

Make Your Own Life's Meaning.

I would write stuff right now, but I can't. So I thought I would share...

Make Your Own Life's Meaning.

Camp Lowdown.

So it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. We had the camp to pretty much to ourselves for the first night. Stayed up and chilled with me homies. Then camp started. Met some cool people. Talked to people all over the world. I wish I could have talked to them more but I was teaching. Which wasn't bad. Gave me a taste of what staff would be like at Royenah. Senior year... fasho! Totally gonna be staff! Met the King of Sweden too. THE King of Sweden. haha It was totally awesome. Then chilled with my 333 homies. Then today, woke up late: 8:00. Cleaned up camp and left by 11:45. Best of all: No scouting stuff 'til next week! YES! so relieved.

Homework's definitely come back to bite me in the ass this time. No way avoiding it. APUSH war sheet, ID cards for two chapters, Comedy and satire essay, Physics problems, Pre-Cal homework. Damn.

Lowell VS. Lincoln
@ Polo Field #1 @ 3:45
Tuesday, Sept 26

Be there or be 3-dimensional. Come watch me warm up the grass with my ass.

Camp Sucks.

Gettin' ready to go to Camp Ida Smith.. seriously, the worst camp in existence. Only Class A, most of the supplies taken care of. Now all I need is dinner... Anyway, it should be an experience. I don't know what kind, but an experience nonetheless. In fact, its already started. I had to look online to see how to use a compass. wowie.

Damned be the homework load. Got an essay for tues, a APUSH test tm, notecards mon, lab mon, physics problems mon, and art tm. Speaking of which, I'm averaging a B+ in art. In ART! that's some messed up sugar, yo. Of course, not helped by mandatory benchwarming.. thank god no practice tomorrow. also gotta do sat prep and finish weekend homework at camp. there's probably more, but i can't remember cuz i'm all jittery. faaaack.

I just wanna let go and leave. Just drop my load, say screw it, and walk away. but of course, that's impossible.

Blast from the Past.

Soo... Yeah. Today is Wednesday. I've got an APUSH test and vocab quiz tomorrow. ID cards due friday. It's 1:00A.M. I just quit doing my Pre-Cal and went online. Still gotta finish and start APUSH. Wasted two hours bench-warming and then went to a recruitemnt thing which wasn't a recruitment thing at all. It sucks. Just think... no distractions, then I would be sleeping right now.
I also got the 2005 freshman yearbook today. I looked so different back then. I was pretty stupid back then too. So many things I would've done differently. It's crazy how much one yearbook can make me regret so much. But at the same time, I don't regret it. I'm glad that my freshman year was what it was. Maybe should've joined track, but not much else would have made it any better. I just think I would've gotten more of what I have now, maybe things would be better that way. blah whatever. spewing this crappity-crap won't do anything. just reminising.
I'm so stressed right now. Between soccer, homework, boy scouts, and camp, I've got almost no time to do anything anymore. which is probably why I'm doing this now. Especially since soccer seems to be a waste of time. Never start, never get put in. Played Balboa. 5-0. Dammit. Why wasn't I in that? shiii... Anyway, I'm screwing myself over by doing this now. And I gotta check SAT dates too. fcuk. Sometimes, I wish I could just sit back an look at the nonexistent stars. Or maybe the sun. Lookin' forward to monday!

Up and Down Again.

So Wednesday, got a much needed break from soccer. Didn't do much homework though. Then Thursday, June Jordon game at the polo fields. Played the last 30 sec. of the game... out of pity. Then yesterday, things started looking up. Much to my disappointment, I played the JV game at Woodside Priory. The JV played better than the Varsity, something that I'm proud of.

Also, in the last five minutes, I scored a goal on a corner kick. It got knocked out of the 18 yard line, and i went up and booted up, thinking I'd put it back in the box. Then it arched into the top left corner. I must say it was a very beautiful goal. Nobody saw it, and of those, nobody cared because we were up 5-0. But that didn't really matter. At that moment, I thought I could fly. It felt that good.

Then I took it easy and didn't do any homework. At 3:00, we drove down to Cupertino. I drove the entire way. I was so proud of myself. I think I'm getting the hang of this driving business. Also, had a reasonably good time with my cousins, something that doesn't happen enough.

I just got back from Cupertino. And now that homework is comming back to bite me in the ass. I've got massive amounts of Physics, Pre-Cal, Korean, and APUSH homework. What's more, I got to go to some training for the camp I'm volenteering at. Let's hope that God decides to shine on me for a bit longer.

This is not helping.

So today, I got a moderate amount of homework, including to finish Wold's ID Cards, as well as a APUSH and Korean test tomorrow. Not so bad. But then I got a soccer game. Guess what? Didn't play. Wasted about 3 hours of my life. Then got home and immediately had to go to the Court of Honor ceremony for Boy Scouts. I hate being SPL. And to top it off, I gotta make a menu for the stupid new scouts. Dammit. I think I'll hand that over to Mr. McG... Also gotta give up going to a game on Tues to recruit for my troop. And something on Monday too... I forget what, but it's important. Double Dammit... and I gotta do an Eagle project and SAT prep. I swear, I'm never gonna touch that. EVER. I feel so guilty for not doing it too... I think I need at least a week to get through all the work that suddenly magically found me in the last 6 hours. Preferably two. This internet isn't helping. Damned be the information superhighway.

I feel so bogged down because of this. Like I'm trying to swim in quicksand. But at least there's a light at the end of this god forsaken tunnel. It's... nope, got nothing. Tell me? Track season starts in Feb. countin' the days....

Question, Question....

Week 2. Getting used to the monotony of school. Along with soccer. Made the team. Got the uniform. I wanted 8... dammit Salvador! haha. Found myself wishing track would start again soon... maybe if I wish hard enough...

70% on APUSH test. Damn! Gotta work it!

Am I good enough? I don't know anymore.

Weekend #1

BOOM! Procrastination hits hard as this weekend, I was up in Geurnville with "family". Came back for "tutor" and now procrastinating from doing ID Cards and 150 word Korean essay. Oh and when I woke up in the car, parents were screaming at each other; not the best sound to wake up to. Saying something about moving into an appartment. hmmm....

Oh, Well in fact, Well, I'll look at it this way:
I mean technically our marriage is saved.
Well this calls for a toast so pour the champagne,
Pour the champagne.

P!ATD, people. DUH.

School: Week 1

First week back wasn't so bad. Got a mod 13 lunch.. and not procrastinating.. as of yet. US History is easier than I thought it would be. But pre-cal... mann, whatever. Made soccer, and SPL. I'm gonna die this year. Leaving for where ever in a few hours. 150 - 200 words in Korean what I did over the summer. Mine's gonna be like 15 words long. I wish I was better at driving. Uhh yep. That's about it. No angst today, kiddies.

Let the Beautiful Game Begin.

So was able to go practice soccer and try out... again. Update with my dad: we talk only when we need to. So anyways, back to football. Played everyday since tuesday. Gonna play until saturday. Gotta read 330 pages before monday. pray for me. Also gotta go do that SAT thing. Damn that SAT thing. I'm never gonna do it. Seriously.

Anybody wanna give me a ride to Laurel Heights after the Tournament tomorrow?

Joga Bonito. Play Beautiful.

I never asked for this... not for any of it.
Why is it happening to me? now?
I don't want any of it.
I just want to drift away on silver wings
to be where I'm happy.
But then... they do say you have to
go through hell to get to heaven.

You complicate life.
You do it to make it hard for me.
So stop. You'll never prove you're point
because I'm never going to grow up.
I'm never going to lose sight of the
big picture.
You can't enjoy life if you worry about
money, apperance, objects.
So don't press it onto me, because
I'm not going through life like that.

A "Unique" Breed.

Survived week one of said grounding punishment. Haven't talked to my dad since said grounding. O well, not bothering me that much. My parents are thinking of divorce again. I hate this living situation I'm in. I've also gotta finish... what? O yea: Silent Spring, Eagle Project, and SAT prep. Damn.

Haven't been very productive. Woken up at 12-1 everyday, sleeping at 4-5. Gotta fix that. Well, been doing a lot of thinking since I've nothing better to do. I've come to the realization that I am a unique breed. Nobody else has the same musical tastes as me, with the possible exception of Gordon. But deeper than that, I am of a unique breed. Nobody else thinks even remotely similar to me, or has a personality like mine. I think that's why I don't have that many best friends. I can't seem to be able to meet people like me. It's a shame really. Being unique is tiring. I might be sounding a little cocky and aangsty with all this "unique" and "nobody understands" stuff, but I feel it to be true.

I guess I'll see everybody else when school starts then. To those who read, at the risk of sounding corny... thanks for caring.
Healing = Gym Class Hero + This Providence + The Noise of Summer + Daphne Loves Derby.

Independence...but not yet.

Yesterday was a pretty good day. Went to the Aisian League Track Meet. Metaled in all of my events. Bronze in the 200, Silver in Long, Triple, 16x100, and Gold in 4x100 and 4x400. Then went to Chilie's for dinner. Came home at 11 something. That's when it got worse.
As soon as I get home, my dad yells and hits me for not calling while at the meet. Then grounds me til school starts. Then to make it worse, I also get a seperate punishment from my mom to clean the house, do the dishes. Then she talks my ears off about being mugged and drive-bys and not being legally responsible.
What really stings is that they actally punished me so harshly. OK, I forgot to call, and I panicked them. I'll give them that. But while 'talking' to me, my mom goes on about being legally responsible for me until I'm 18. They just want me home to save their own asses. They don't want to be seen as bad parents just for appearance. What also really hurts is that they don't know me well enough to know I won't get into trouble, I won't be killed, and I won't do something stupid. I'm their son, and they don't know me well enough to trust me and my instincts. That friggin' sucks.
If and when I ever calm down from this, I'll probably regret this post, but screw the future. Now, there is nothing I would rather do is to run away. I mean, I can't even go to soccer conditioning anymore because of my stupid dad. I am so friggin sick of this.
On a totally unrelated note, I lost my retainer as well. It's nothing to do with this, but it doesn't make me feel any better about this situation.

Damned be the MUNI

Today, I was gonna go see Tomorrow's Hero. But, I didn't have a ride. So, I asked my cousin for one, she never came. So that made me late to take the Muni. Then the muni was running late. Can you imagine? So I got to Van Ness and then the directions I got were to go on the 47 til Post. I asked the driver where Post street was, and he said,"go take the bus on the other side." So then as soon as I get there, the bus comes. That was a curse disguised as a blessing. I got on, looking for Post, and ended up riding the whole damned thing to pier 39. I got to Pier 39 at 4:30. So yea. Damned be 511.org. Damned be the Muni. Damned be my cousin (not really).
Another thing. My mom started yelling at me because my cousins were staying at my place. Don't feel like writing about that, maybe later.
I can play Middle Middle now, but not really.

haha I'd like to wake up like once during the year. haha

In a nutshell...

well, gotta finish reading silent spring. i've been told that its mandatory for apes people. Vose, you are awesome. staff next year? i should be sleeping now... insomnia? i don't know. anyway, i am going to bring a soccer ball down to james logan... work on some stuff. I've got a jam-packed weekend ahead of me. friday, polian's party, and then my family party. saturday.... tomorrow's hero's first show since i've been listening to them that i can go to. wanna come? sunday, etc track meet. people! if you know who i am in the real world, give me indication that i'm not forgotten or something! let's go see a movie or sumthing. cuz frankly, i'm bored out of my mind.

in a nutshell: people, let's do something, but not this weekend. when you talk to me online, remind me to sleep and to do SAT. ok?

la-la... spill canvas!

happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me...

I'm Back!

OK! So this past week, I've been up at camp. Yea... pretty much the worst time I've had up there. I hated being SPL. Friggin' Micheal and Shiang brothers made this week a living hell. Also, I got sick with the stomach flu on Friday right after closing campfire. And yet, despite all of that, I still want to go back up for another week. I am so screwed up.
Anyway, two days til my birthday... Isn't that great? Tell me if you want to do something.

Untitled.

So I haven't been feeling all that great since last week. Thursday, went to Carmel with family. Came back on Sunday. Monday, went to Sean's Summer Track and Eddy's Summer Track. Yesterday, went driving. Today, overslept and missed Sean's Summer Track, so going to Eddy's. I think. My computer broke down on me, being the technology killer that I am. So forced to use the old computer.

Been pouring myself into the DLD and TH boards as of late. Hate myself now, because it's so goddamn boring. Also been reading Don't Sweat the Small Stuff for Teens. Pretty interesting. Came to this chapter where it says that not everyone can like you. Only just then was when I realized I have almost no friends. Like best friends. I need more of those..

I'm so down right now. Let's hang out sometime. please.

The Best is Over.

This last weekend was the best part of my summer so far. Saturday, went to warped tour, as already said. But Sunday was awesome. I went to the track banquet and got there at around at 5:20 ish. Then ate and caught up with some people I haven't seen since the end of school. Then after at like 10:30, went to Leona's place to eat cereal(?) and they talked till 3:15. Got home at 3:30. I would've gotten away with all of this until I told my mom and my dad what I did. I should've said I got home at like 11:00. So stupid. I think my dad now hates me. Strage though, because I don't really, really care. I should, but don't. Something's wrong. Anyway, got a lot more to do.

• Eagle Scout Project. - figured out, now just write the proposal
• Do the Mock SAT. - preferably tues.
• Get the Asian Leauge Track Form signed. - Due July 20th.
• Polian's B-day - August 11th
• Finish Driver's Training. - Already driving tm, maybe again next mon.
  

Van's Warped Tour.

Today I went to the Warped Tour. Pretty much the one of the better days I've had lately. Got there at like 9:45-ish and saw some awesome bands... lets see if I can name em all:

• Gym Class Heros
• Motioncity Soundtrack
• Bouncing Souls
• The Academy Is...
• Plain White T's
• Armor for Sleep
• Anti-Flag
• Hellogoodbye
  

Yea, I think that's all of them. Bought hella stuff too. Got a MCS tee, couple CDs... and the tour gave some 30 odd bands to check up on. pretty cool stuff. Gordon, let's go to GCH in September.

How's My Driving?

I dislike Driving. I hate driving with my Dad. Every drive with my dad is a one sided screaming session directed at me for my admittably horrible driving. There has got to be a better way to teach. I was sweating and tearing up everytime he yelled; in other words, it was basically torture.

Gonna start pumping iron Wednesday.
After another driving lesson, gotta schedule that.
And schedule another eye exam.
For better glasses.

Warped Tour on Sat - not all too excited.
Track Banquet on Sun - not excited for that either.

Something interesting:

"Thinking is good, knowledge is good, but no man ever gets very far with either if he does not have initiative."

- Boy Scout Handbook, 6th edition, 1959

Un Natural

So today, was hopefully the worst day of my summer. First, went shoe shopping with my grandparents and my mom. Turns out that we meet George, a graduated senior from Lowell. He goes on to tell my mom all this stuff about how he and his friend Jennifer didn't get into their first pick colleges. This inspires my mom to rant and lecture me about how I should try harder and not slack off. Then we had to drop off my dad for his knee surgury. After his apathetic leave, my mom is again inspired to start ranting to me about how screwed up my parents are, then goes back to the college thing, then starts bashing me on how I don't have any idea what I want to do with my life. And then, she starts comparing me to my cousins who already know what they want to be when they grow up. And then she starts bashing the one profession that I thought would be worth while: architecture. Saying how it doesn't pay well and loads of other crap. She then gets mad at me for not being able to see and not being able to read an eye chart, because my vision got worse. Note that this was at DMV where some odd 20 people could hear her more or less making fun of me. So today, I spent a majority of my time being pissed off at my mom.

I swear, she doesn't want me to have a life. She basically said to me to grow up, stop fooling around (as if I had anyway) and think seriously about my career options. I mean, what the f**k? She gets mad at me when I never did anything and she complains about her marriage to me when I can't to jack squat. The worst thing is, I had to take all this or else I would've gotten into trouble. I almost yelled at her to shut up and go see a marriage counselor. Really. I think it's unhealthy as well as unnatural to be this spiteful of your mother. I think something is seriously wrong with me.

Pushing all this aside, the good things in my day are: I got some navy chucks, and I got my permit. Pretty pathetic huh? I'm gonna go sleep and see if that helps me cool down.

I feel o so wise now...

I'm not gonna lie to you. Wisdom teeth extraction hurts like ....well hell. Woke up at 8 to get ready for the operation. Then when I got there, waited bout half an hour and then they started. Went under and slept until maybe... 12? Then I got home and slept some more... woke up cuz of the excruciating pain. This happened maybe twice. So then me and my brother added it up and I slept for about 18 hours today. That would be totally awesome, if it weren't for the fact I was in pain for most of the time.
Doc says I can start doing things tomorrow.. but I'm not sure if i want to. My face is so swollen, it looks like a square. So yea.. call me up if you wanna do something.. Gonna miss soccer tomorrow.. damn
Speaking of which, Korea didn't make the top 16. I'm so ashamed right now... you don't even know.

Summer - Week 1

This week, I was at Eagle Camp at Los Mochos. It was a very interesting experience, to say the least. I was eaten alive by mosquitos (30+ bites) and baked by the friggin' 95+ degree sun but I had a lot of fun. I was up there with my T333 guys and met some really cool T14 kids up there too. Also met some awesome kids from all over the Bay Area. There's no way I can fit everything that's happened to me into a single post, so I won't bother trying. I'll just say as much fun as I had up there, I have never been so happy to see the SF Bay fog in my life. ever.
I made an appointment with DMV to get my permit. I'm gonna 0wn that test. I also gotta get my wisdom teeth pulled tomorrow, so going to sleep soon. O and I'm gonna start lifting with summer track on Monday. I'm gonna have so much fun this summer, it's mind numbing.

Wanna go see CARS?

Summer's Official Start

So I think I've come to think of this blogger as my own personal journal of some sort. And I guess that a journal needs daily if not weekly entries. So I'll try to update more often. What's more initative was that summer has offically started! O man, this is gonna be a great one! Although my parents are piling on all this extra work. Like SAT Prep. And Boy Scout Junk. It's not a lot, but it gets in the way of a whole bunch of stuff i want to do.
I'm gonna be leaving this Saturday or Sunday; don't know which one. Won't be back to the following weekend, so don't expect to hear from me until then. And then a mix of crazy fun, summer track, Contour, learning guitar, soccer, and going out with a bunch of friends.
I've got a whole bunch of stuff lined up. Warped Tour with my brother and Gordon. Then Contour with Gen. Then something for my Birthday. It doesn't come with its own unpleasentness. I got to get my wisdom teeth pulled on the 24th. But besides that, I don't think I'll have too much trouble enjoying myself.
Today was self scheduling. I think I've gotten a good schedule. As Follows:

• 1/2/(3) - nothing. another late start
• (3)/4/5 - Physics - Staff-W rm. S205
• REG.
• 6/7 - Korean 5 - Cho rm. 215
• (8)/9/10 - APUSH - Wold rm. 233
• 11/12 - Comedy & Satire - Carney rm. 139
• 14/15 - Art - Joyce rm. 70
• 16/17/(18) - Pre-Calc - Fahey rm. 271
• (18)19/20 - Soccer. presumably.

Gotta get my soccer skills up to scratch.

Finals are over!

Wow today was great! First and foremost, I only had the english final to do. What really sucks is that I have to go to class tomorrow, but whatever. Went to Wendy's Birthday... uh party. Had some awesome food. Shame I didn't get her anything. But then, I've never really given birthday presents. Sorry Wendy!
Then me, Rayson, Gordon, and Temba went to go see X-Men: The Last Stand. To tell the truth, it wasn't all that great. But we got some laughs out of it. Like Juggernaut being a dickhead, and a naked Mystique. And "I'm the Juggernaut, BITCH!" Man, I'm gonna be laughing about that for a while. All in all though, it was a waste of money. If you're going to see it, go see it during matinee hours.
Gordon and Rayson then came over to have dinner and stuff. I totally owned them at deuces. Hey guys, you should come over and play some cards more often. I've got like three new guitar projects: Closing Down the Pattern Department (intro), Simple, Starving to Be Safe (into), When I Come Around (intro). When I finish the intros, I'll do the rest, assuming I'm good enough to play them.
The whole 'no comments' thing in a seperate post.

A Stress Reliever

Here's the deal. Write whatever you want, to whoever you want. Don't say the name. Don't allow comments.

1. I hope I don't try your patience to its endpoint. If I do, I"m sorry. I'm sorry about being the way I am, but I can't help it. It seems that everytime I try to get close to you, I seem to loose my nerve and become your friend. Your ordinary friend. Why is it that everytime I'm alone, I think about you and how much fun we would have together? I guess I doubt I would be able to keep you with me, or that you might think ill of me. Or maybe it's that I seek companionship that only a relationship could bring. I promise to change, but until I do, just know that every spare second I have is a second spent thinking about you.

2. You annoying peice of crap! Why is it that you always have to get in my way and annoy me? I guess its that you don't give me the outward respect I think I deserve. If you did, maybe things wouldn't be as bad as they are now. Just remember that I will always try to protect you from anything you need protecting from, and that listen to any problems you might. I hope you mature into someone like me, but at the same time, I hope that you carve out your own path. Just remember, I'll always be proud of you, no matter what decisions you decide to make in the immediate and distant future.

3. I only met you this year, but I feel like I've known you for my entire life. I feel like I can be my genuine self around you and I thank you for allowing me to relax. You have quickly become someone whom I can call a best friend. Don't have too many of those. I don't give that sort of title to many people, but you definitely deserved it. Without you this year, I can't even imagine how much different I would be. So thank you for helping me become me.

4. You know, I used to idolize you. I guess I still do. I wish I knew you when you were younger, and if you were anything like me when you were my age. I'm just so curious of whether or not we would have been the best of friends or the worst of enemies. Hopefully, the former. I want to know the story behind your words, and the experiences you lived through. I hope that as I continue to grow up, that you continue to guide me through this crazy roller coaster. I'll admit that you haven't been doing a great job at that, but nobody's perfect, not even idols. But the life lessons you taught me have helped me immensly, and hope to hear more of them before I hit the road.

5. This one is to a whole group of people. You've been the most supportative group I have ever known. I'm amazed that I didn't know you guys last year. I admire you guys for being so great at what you do and that you give it your all everytime. Don't ever stop what you do. I'll be seeing you guys next year, hopefully better than when I left. I do believe that I have found my clique.

6. I'm sorry that I haven't seen you in so long, but I've had other things to do. I've moved on from this place and gone somewhere I can improve myself, not just my physical prowess, if it can be call prowess. It's not that I dislike what I have done, on the contrary, it was the most fun I have ever had up till this point. But here, there is a limit to what I can accomplish. I have to keep striving to better myself. I'll still see you outside, and maybe even see me to come back, but don't expect me to stay long or put my heart into it, because it won't be there. I hope the friendship that we have made perseveres, but if not, I'm glad I met you.

And that's it. If your curious about these people IM me one on one. I might answer your questions. Wow wasn't this stuff really corny? I think so too.

Finals.

O man. I'm screwed for finals. tomorrow I gots Health and Korean, then on wednesday i got the written english test. Thursday real finals start, with a Korean movie, a Driver's Ed pink slip, and P.E. tourny. Friday, I have Chemisty(I'm doomed) and Geometry(doomed...again). then the English play. damn and somehow, i have time to get online. Someone take my computer for the week.. cuz i'm going to suffer if i keep it.

Here's the deal. Write whatever you want, to whoever you want. Don't say the name. Don't allow comments.

I'll do this after finals.. Will I write about you?!?! stay tuned and find out!

Life... boring...

Since track ended, I've been hanging around school a lot more, just because it feels weird leaving for home so early. I think I should maybe stop that; I can't afford to waste time right now, with finals coming up so soon and everything. Finals coming up soon,.. doing nothing for them, again. I'll muddle thought somehow.
Life really sucks right now.. especially the one that pertains to love. Geez. Love is such a weird emotion. It comes up when its not wanted and then comes back when your other isn't with you. At least for me. I think I'll give up on asking her out.. I'm pretty sure I wouldn't make a good boyfriend. bleh.
I wen't on a blogthings rampage. total of four different blogthings in like 15 minutes. weird, no?

You Belong in San Diego

Laid back and friendly, you were meant to live most of your life on the beach. You usually think everything is "all good"... except when the weather dips under 60F. You stay classy - especially when you're in Tijuana!

Where Does Your Inner Californian Belong?

You Are Strawberry Ice Cream

A bit shy and sensitive, you are sweet to the core. You often find yourself on the outside looking in. Insightful and pensive, you really understand how the world works. You are most compatible with chocolate chip ice cream.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

You Are Indigo

Of all the shades of blue, you are the most funky, unique, and independent. Expressing yourself and taking a leap of faith has always been easy for you.

What Color Blue Are You?

All-City's Over

... well, for me anyway. I placed 9th (probably) in the long jump with a 17'2" and placed 3rd in triple jump with a 35'5.5". I still couldn't catch T.Tran's freshman record of 36'. Next year, I'll totally jump a 38! haha I wish. Anyway, my track season is over now. It makes me sad to know that I won't be running everyday.
For the summer, I gotta work on my "core"; abs and arms. Gotta gain 5 pounds of muscle by september. My summer goal this year. o yesss....

What?

Just Because

Today was very boring. Woke up at 9.5, went to practice at 10, came home at 12, and then hung around the house. I found out that I will be doing long jump for All-City's. Hope I make it to finals. That would be so cool.

Got my track sweater. It says A. Yi. It's so awesome. I wore it like 3 days straight, its so cool. Should I do summer track? I want to.. but I promised. Anyway, parents finally figured out my summer schedule for me.
-eagle camp (June 17 - June 230
-Kaplan SAT prep
-regular camp

They have also outlined my goals this summer.
-get liscense
-learn guitar
-eagle camp completion

So for the first time in 4 years, I'll be in town for my birthday. Everyone I know should go bowling with me or something like that.
congrats, wendy

Hapkido/Dragonboat Thoughts.

Hello. Now so that I won't bore you, this one will not be as long as my last one. I've been thinking lately why I do this thing I do called Hapkido. I thought for like an hour for one good reason. I couldn't. So now I think I might give it up, although I don't really want to.

I've also thought about this Dragonboat thing. If I make it, what will happen to Track? I did Track to stay in shape, but I guess it grew on me. It be werid. Anyway, so I think that I'll just give up Dragonboating too, if I make it onto the team. There's not much reason for me to join.
I asked my mom for a Rubik's Cube for me Birthday. What a geek.

When we long jump, we're told to look at the houses.

But that doesn't work for me.

I have to look higher to get the same distance as others...

Ahhh Lent... is Over!!

I'm back again, fellow interweb addicts! For those of you who are wondering why I was absent for the last 40 days, I was taking part in a Catholic feast called Lent where we fast for 40 days and 40 nights. It ends on Easter. Which is why I'm here typing. Anyway, I still wrote some journal entries. Because somethings were just too awesome to be contained. Here they are in chonological order:

Skilled! March 10, 2006

Well, you eager reader(s?) are probably wondering why I haven't been online for a while. Well the reason is because I have given up the internet for Lent. Yep. I finally did something religous of my own free will. I think this a major milestone for me. Maybe I'll be able to enjoy church. Nah, probably not. Anyway, It's been about a week and a half since Lent had started, and I am indeed holding up. Barely. The temptation is much too great. But the good news is that I'm resisting temptation, trying to be faithful to my commitment to God. Anyway, coming back from my religous epiphany.

I am writing this on Friday, March 10th, 2006. A lot happened the last couple of days. First, first ever track meet was cancelled due to frigid rain. Damn rain. I got second in my heat. Joy Joy. Also, I lost my glasses. Not so Joy Joy. Then a bunch of my dad's friends came over for acupunture, and one of them was an optomitrist, apparently. He knew my perscription just by looking at my eyes. That is skill!! I strive to become that good at my job. And I got new glasses today. They look like Mike Kim's but not. My brother says I look "nerdy", so be prepared for a nerdy me come Monday. Friday. I got my phone confescated because it went off in Stupi's class. So I spent an hour waiting around for her to turn it into the dean by going to a track meeting, and then spending another hour picking up trash to get my phone back. I had to skip practice to do it too. Shame on me. This weekend is going to be hecksa busy. I got a friend's birthday party thing @ 2 on Saturday, and helping a friend with his eagle project on Sunday. And squeezing in homework and two tee shirt designs somewhere in there. I finished a fourth of the design and haven't even touched my backpack. Ooo I predict sleepless nights in the comming days. I am fully aware that by the time I post this, it will have been in the past. BUT I need some sort of outlet to put my daily happenings, even if it isn't screamed to the world. So come Monday after Easter a masss flood of entries.

Wednesday, March 15, 2006. 10:49P.M.

Well, this is another lenten posting. Brought to you by the magic of digital storage. Anyway, my brother got his public school acceptence letter today. It turns out he won't be going to Lowell next year. I feel sad. If he went to Lowell, then I could be a big brother, not his twin. Like he'll actually believe all of the things I'd tell him. But I would also make fun of him and other stuff. I'm probably more bummed out then he is. I wanted to be his big brother.. even if it was only in school.
What really pisses me off though is the other people who got into Lowell from his class. Matt Lopez, Elliot S., and Will F. Now, I don't really hold any type of grudge against these guys, but why them? Will is really annoying. And I mean really annoying. Like he would stalk me at Lowell cuz he doesn't have any friends annoying. And Elliot. His personality just rubs me the wrong way. He's hella smart, but hella cocky. I don't know. maybe I'll learn to like him. I doubt it though. And finally. Matt Lopez. He's the son of the varsity baseball coach. I swear to God (but not really). Exact. Same. Last. Name. And he doen't really deserve to go to Lowell.
Another thing that's pissed me off is the stupid new, lax principal. Now I actually wish that Sr. Diane was still there, cuz then maybe my brother would have actually gotten into Lowell! I mean.. o wow day off every month, but not your first choice of a high school. sorry. Geez! Those two retiring really screwed my brother over.
Anyway, that's my rant. I really do feel that my brother should have gotten into Lowell. I'm diggin' Motioncity Soundtrack's "Commit This to Memory" CD. Especially "Better Open the Door". Great stuff.

10:09 PM March 26th 2006

Well, today is March 26th, 2006. A lot's been happening since my last "post". I'm barely holding on to my lenten promise. But I shall persevere. because then, the whole thing would be pointless. I just happen to see the calender hanging and decided to count forty days including Ash Wednesday. Forty days ends on April 9th!!! That's a whole week! But just be safe, I won't go on until Easter: 16th. Why does the chuch do this? I don't get it.
Anyway, onto my somewhat regular rantings. I have learned through my brother that Daphne Loves Derby is going to perform at Slim's on the 11th!! I was so psyched. Key word "was". Apparently, I'm going to be in Tahoe by the time they start playing, so there's no point in hoping anymore. Maybe I could get someone to go buy me a tee shirt...
Yesterday, was the Mustang/Gator Relays! They were alright I guess. Got there at 7:30 ish to warm up for the 4x100. Guess what? I never ran it because of the screwed up sign-in system. So I sat there for the better part of 5 hours watching random races and talking to people. After my 100 race, I went to Subway cuz I was starving my ass off. Ahahaha how stupid. Anyway. I get back from Subway to learn that I was going to run the 4x400 relay. So I ran it. The miracle was I didn't cramp up in the middle of it. Amazing. Equally amazing is my time of 63.76..ish. I'm not sure if that's a good time or not, but I'm happy with it. If I could get a 50-something I'd be estatic. So, after the relays, couple of people went to Chevy's!! Not the best food in the world, but OK! Yeah. Buncha laughs, Buncha talking, Buncha singing from Latasha. Ended up paying like $35.00 bucks for me and Wilson. He owes me $5. I had a great time yesterday. If only my average day went something like that.
Before that, me and a bunch of my friends took my friend Adam to the Castro for the first time. Quite an experience. Little by little I'm expanding my social circle. I feel so accomplished.
Nothing in my music world atm(at the moment). Hooked on Daphne Loves Derby like a drug though. Damn.

April 6,2006 10:29 P.M.

A lot's happened this last week. Well, last week, if I remember correctly, was WASC. And so there were only three days of school then. Finished most of my homework on Thrusday and Friday, and then went to visit my cousins in L.A. Man! I wanna live in L.A. Anyways, it just so happened to be the same weekend where the Lowell track team went. But I didn't get to see them. Poor me. So.. On the plane trip to and from there,(in first class!) I read an article about the three best days spent in San Francisco. And so I read it. Turns out that this week, next week?, is the 100th anniversary of the 1906 earthquake. It mentioned all these great sites to visit. And then I was a thinkin', it would be great to go to these places with someone. Someone I haven't found yet. So ya. My weekend was chock full of eventful things.
And now, the Lincoln meet. I P.R.ed (personal record) in the 400! with a 62.95! is that cool or what?!?! It could also be viewed as sad I guess, what I'll take what I can get. I also successsfully completed a 4x100 race. as the first leg. Maybe that's why I completed it. So today I did pretty well. I wish Andy wasn't behind on the times.. then I could celebrate sooner.
I have also learned that my cousins are going to drive up from L.A. with my mother this night, tonight. I must say I am excited.
Lent is over in -T 1 1/2 weeks! ooo I can't wait. I'mma go on myspace first, I think.
Corinne should stop being depressed, because she's got a lot of people that love her. I'm just saying.. haha So, basically everything I wanted to vent. I've gotta say, my mood has been miraculously lifted. Brother's gotten me into Reel Big Fish.. maybe he has some sort of taste in music after all...

What a Comeback!

Wow!! Obviously, a lot's happened since I updated last. Well today was a very good day. The only bad part was the B in Korean. How embarrasing. Anyways, after school I ran my fastest mile time ever! Sub-7!! Heck yes! I don't know the exact time, but I was in the first 25 and Spencer Cheung guessed about 6:15. Also, we worked on relays today. First set, we got second. SECOND! Haha, but then we got third or something, not counting the coaches but that is O.K. I'm content with today. I also recieved acupuncture for my shoulder and my calves. No more sore legs for me! No screwups, and a good mood throughout.

Another thing was that I was in a particularly good mood throughout the day. It felt.. good not having to worry about extraneous things like social life, projects, and spelling. Haha. Why do I worry so much to death when letting it all go feels so much better? I should let go more often. Thank you Anonymous, for the Anne Frank quote.. although it kinda ticks me off that I don't know who you are.. anyways, thanks. And I shall see the rest (rest meaning one) of you later. Alex.. OUT!

Out of it...

Helllo Wendy!! haha well, since she's the only person I know who reads this stuff, I do think she deserves something special. Haha. Anyway, this weekend is the first three-day weekend in a while, I must admit. I should be happy about that, right?

Then how come I feel so crappy? I do think that lately, I've been invisible. If you don't know what I'm talking about, I'm pretty sure you just proved my point. It's probably my fault for being so nosy all the time, but I can't help it. It's who I am, and I can't change that. And to add to this already angsty entry, I feel excluded as well. I haven't spoken or even had any contact with other people from my middle school. I really didn't expect to be the most popular, but it adds to my lonliness.

My last point. I think that others are having more fun than I can possibly have in my entire life. And I mean that. I feel that all that's left for me is to be so totally emo. So far, emo is living up to its rep: dumb and boring. Also, on a sidenote, I just wanted to say I should let loose once in a while. Nobody's been to my house in... I can't even remember how long its been. So in conclusion: If you read this, and you ever see me, please remind me to enjoy life. Really.

XD

A lot's happened since I updated last.. I don't even know where to begin..

Well... Yesterday, I got to be a ball boy for the International Game of Korea vs. Costa Rica. Korea lost though.. They should know where everybody else is when passing. geez. Anyways, besides getting to get to see both the Korean and the Costa Rican teams upclose, I saw some of the "old crowd" I guess, when I used to play Korean soccer with them. I saw Tammy, Gina, Andrew, Danny, and a buch of others I didn't remeber the names of.

I wish I still played soccer with them. They obviously haven't. They kept talking like they saw each other just yesterday. But when I think about that, it gets me thinking I'm speading myself too thin despite the fact that I don't play with them. I've got Track, Hapkido, Soccer(if I can wake up), School, and the social life that comes with school. Damn that social life.. If only I didn't have the urge to be friends with everybody I used to be friends with.. Ahhh I can't wait for summer! Then there's only sleep, soccer, and hapkido! I still haven't picked something to do during the summer. I think I'll get a job, but I don't know where. Anyway, I think this is enough to get you guys to care.. haha

A Confused Post

Well. I think I'm love-struck... I'm not sure from who or when though.. Or maybe out of it.. I'm not sure. But for those who think I'm crazy and should change my daily attire to a straight jacket, I have these feeble reasons. Does it really help that my current song is "Hopeless Love" by Daphne Loves Derby? I didn't think so. And second. Is it weird that I find this quote true?

Time out- I don't need this drama,
but I will take you back anyday.

~Ronnie Day - Outside

The First Week

Well. Welcome to the end of the Spring Semester of the year 2006... and it has been kinda bad. Drama seems to follow the average high school student no matter who you hang out with. And I think I should get my physical for track in.. as well as check in.. yes. Anyway. My schedule. Kinda late, and I'm sure nobody will see it. (Only 2 people look at this site anyway.)

1/2/3 - Sleep

4/5 - Korean [Cho]

6/7 - Chemistry [Rotter]

9/10 - Geometry [Costa]

11/12 - Health Ed. [Keyak]

14/15 - Driver's Ed. [Joyce] [2]

16/17 - Phys. Educ. [Louie]

19/20 - English [Stupi]

And so, in conlcusion, not a bad schedule. Although this might be bad for those who want to join track such as myself. I'll update if I come across anything out of the ordinary. High School Drama does not count.

Winter's Summer

Ok. so I haven't been on in a while.. kinda weird how I wanted to get on but never did. Anyway. This week, finals, as most people who will read this know. Thursday classes as usual. I did go to class until about 11-12. I aced my Computer Programming final!! haha YES! Anyway, then I went to lakeshore bought batteries for my mom's present, then went to town. haha. I cut my first class Thursday. Pathetic you people say, but I've never saw cutting as a possiblity for me so.. its a big deal. Not cutting again until the end of the year. I swear.

My Mom's birthday was on Thursday too. Gave gift, sang birthday songs, ate cake, the whole whatever. Then went online for the first time in while. Played Texas holdem, then monopoly, then pool. haha. Another thing my iPod started working when I tried to get it fixed. It was so weird, so no more iPod nano for me! I'll stick with the 20g thanks.

I'm pretty sure I'm addicted to Daphne Loves Derby. They're just too cool. I wish I could have gone to the Saratoga show, but finals.. damn..

I'm Feeling Better Now..

Alright. So I'm feeling better from the last post I made. I was kinda pissed off and stuff.. Depressed, stressed, etc. It's still going to be a while until i'm back to being "happy", so don't count on it in the near future. I'm starting to sound like mikekim... how conformist of me.

Anyways, finals are comming up and I'm doing squat to get ready for them. I'm just that good I guess. Or I'm not motivated at all, which sucks. I really flunked my Korean final Friday. That should get me motivated, but it's not.. Sucha shame. Instead, listening to Jack Johnson's new single - "Upside Down" from the Curious George Soundtrack. How rad is that? So listen to it somewhere; It's good at healing the soul.

Jack Johnson - Upside Down
Who's to say whats impossible?
Have they forgot this world keeps spining?
And with each new day I can feel a change in everything
And as the surface breaks, reflections fade
But in some ways they remain the same
And as my mind begins to spread its wings
There's no stopping curiosity
I wanna turn the whole thing..

Upside down
I'll find the things they say just can't be found
I'll share this love I find with everyone
We'll sing and dance to Mother Nature's song
I don't want this feeling to go away..

Who's to say I can't do everything
But I can try and as I roll along
I begin to find
Things aren't always just what they seem
I wanna turn the whole thing..

Upside down
I'll find the things they say just can't be found
I'll share this love i find with everyone
We'll sing and dance to Mother Nature's song
This world keeps spinning
And there's no time to waste
Well it all keeps spinning spinning round and round

Upside down
We'll sing and dance and spead this love around
I don't want this feeling to go away

Please don't go away
Please don't go away
Please don't go away
Is this how it's suppose to be?..
Is this how it's suppose to be?..

More Mikekim stuff: lyrics.. I should stop reading this blog.

January 17, 2006 after a meeting.

There's nothing quite like the burn of betrayal...

followed by the confirmation of inferiority.

AOL Instant Messager

O.K. As of today, I will no longer have AOL Instant Messager on my computer. One of two things will happen: I will now use AIM Express, or I will use my brother's computer to use this Instant Messaging System. I now have come up with a third possibly: Skype. Of course, nobody will have Skype, so there is no real reason to go download Skype. Is there anybody who uses Skype anyway?

I have also been told by my lovely father that I must now think seriously about what I am to do during the three month recess that is summer. I have no idea. I've offered to go to Yale, study abroad, C.I.T. postion, or get a job. I'm leaning toward getting a job, but I'm still not sure what job I should get. I need input on this subject ... later of course.

Geez. lately I've been really depressed. I think I'll stop here.

Gotta remember to be happy.

Wishing the Impossible

Well, today was exteremely uneventful. I did nothing mostly.. Just usual school stuff. I got a perfect for that career thing. The note on the top read, "Excellent work on this assignment - one of the best in all the classes. " I also finally took the time to figure out my finals schedule, so now I can gripe about it in specifics.

I have been lately wishing I wasn't me. I wish I was a juinor. Junior people I know seem to have such facinating lives. Let's see.. Mike Kim, Yumi Choung, Aaron Suk, Leslie, Chris Shinn, and all of their friends seem to lead very eventful, interesting lives. Mine pales in comparison. I'm proably blowing all out of proportion, but that's how I see it. Makes me wish I was a juinor..

I'm not saying I don't like my friends, because I do. It's just that I think life with them would make life worth a whole lot more to me.

The New Year finds me...

Well, the New Year is here. 2006. Gotta good feeling about it.. but it hasn't been living up to my expectations. Its very disheartening. What's also disheartening is that everybody has put up new years resolutions.. I don't have any. I'm a bad person..

On to sligtly less mundane stuff, I have broken away from Jack Johnson's In Between Dreams and have moved on. Namely, Daphne Loves Derby. Particularly, this one song, Simple, Starving To Be Safe. It is not a metaphor to my life.. well maybe it is. I don't know. I like it because it sounds good. Like, "holy hell! how come I've missed Daphne Loves Derby?" good. really.

I'm lonely.