Create Yourself

...'nuff said.

PBS Rocks My Socks.

So today is technically Sunday. Daylight savings time ends tonight. I can't wait to get that extra hour to save my procrastinating ass. I've got so much homework. bleh. not fun. not fun indeed.

So anyway, it looks like I'm gonna go to Europe with People to People. I had my interview with them today and the guy said, "Congratulations! Your going to Europe!" I was like.. "eh". The thrill has kinda worn off because there hasn't been much going on with it. I'm not as pumped as before. Until I saw Rick Steves on PBS. That guy is my hero. Forreals. He is so cool. I don't know why, but he was awesome, at least to me. It has sparked the damp fuel for this program, metaphorically. I've forgotten that PBS was so kick-ass. I kid not. It shows some worthwhile stuff, unlike other channels that show useless crap. If I'm gonna waste time watching TV, I should at least learn something while I do it. I pledge to only watch Discovery and PBS from now on. And with that decision, I've just reached the ripe old age of 45.

So I've been playing more than usual. I've been playing forward lately as well. Apparently, it's because I'm fast and I can use that to score goals, I guess. Now all I've got to do is prove it. I'm gonna work extra hard from now on. While on the topic of soccer, my dad spent the last month, excluding the last week, playing in Korea. He was in a stadium and everything. He even got warm ups and jerseys. I don't think I've ever been prouder.

Failure All Around!

Remember when I said that I hated driving with Dad? I hate driving with Mom even more. She makes corrections way too late and then lets me ride it out, literally, and then yelling at me for it. It's epsecially bad when she doesn't make a correction at all and then conutinues the yelling. It's stupid. I didn't talk to her at all tonight because she still blames me for continuously making mistakes. OK, I'm at fault, but is it my fault I'm so high strug cause she's right there? I'm never driving with her again. I think she lives to see me fail.

Speaking of failing, I failed in the Burton game today. I got four perfect shots at goal and blew all four of them. I friggin hate myself. I was so fcukin' close and then I stutter step and let the ball get ahead of me. I don't know why they keep putting me at foreward though. It's embarrassing, really. I should get me skill up to par if I ever want to score a goal.

I also "failed" at school. Some people will call me a nerd and an over-achiever for thinking that 3.33 is a low GPA. I mean, my brother's is higher than mine! It's insanity. What ticks me off is that I've got three B+. I need only one small push and POOF I got an A. Geez. What is with these teachers? Especially Fahey. I hate his grading system with a passion. At least I got an A- in APUSH. That was the highlight of my report card. Grades as follows:

• Physics - B+
• Korean - B+
• APUSH - A-
• Comedy - A-
• Art - B+
• Pre-Cal - B-

More nice news: PSATs tomorrow, didn't look over the booklet. Got an interview for the 28th for People to People.

People to People

So this last week feels like nothing. Mostly because of the three day weekend. I love three day weekends. So... school update...I stopped trying to understand Fahey in class. He makes absolutely not sense what so ever. Its so goddamn boring. I wish I was stressing more. That would mean that I'm trying. But I'm not, so I must not be.

It sucks even more in that now I got a goal to do well this year. If I do well, then I will be able to travel to Britian and France with People to People. No, it's not a scam. Alexis Kim and Marc Washington both went on it, so I guess it's legit. But then there's so much stuff to do to get there. As follows:

• 2250 or better on the SAT I
• 700 or better on SAT II in US History and two others (Math II, Chem?)
  
• Finish my Eagle Project before the summer
• End both semesters with a 3.83 or better

Half of it's near impossible, but I'll find a way to do it. I'm determined. Although it's off to a rough start. I think I got a 3.5-ish. B+ in Korean. I'm so dead. Anyway, I'm willing and ready. Wish me luck, cause it's gonna be a tough year.

Wrong!

I remember why I thought I was being oh so productive this weekend! Well, I started thinking about Hapkido again. Yes, again. As in "should I go back or not" again. The reason it's come up again is because I saw Contour. After watching it, I remember why I started in the beginning. I wanted to look badass - so simple. I wanted to look cool, I guess. It was fun too. It's just that I don't have the time. Also was friggin' boring! Nothing to do as a black belt! GEEZ! I was thinking maybe start teaching during the winter and summer, but I gotta study SAT stuff in the winter, not to mention an eagle project! dammit! somebody give me some ideas! Anyway, yeah. That was my great epiphany.

I've been looking up guitar accessories online. I was thinking of changing my pickguard either brown or black and changing the pickups too. I need new strings too, but I can get those later. Pickups are a pain to choose. So many different choices! My God! Nobody needs that much sound, except Jimi Hendrix.

What's more, it's taking time away from studying. It's monday and I haven't started any homework whatsoever! I hate three day weekends in that they let me procrastinate into an oblivion. I still have that test tomorrow and hella id cards to do. I swear...

HMMM....

So it's been an eventful week since I last posted anything on this.... thing. So much so I can't remember anything. I can't remember much before yesterday. Yesterday, went to school at aroun 10 and hung out. Went on the roof twice. Then me and Chase tried free running and flips on the grass. Today, I went to soccer for the first time in like a year. I should go more often. I don't know why I had such a great time this week, but I did. It's weird.

Got hella homework this weekend too. Got physics problem set, 50 IDs for APUSH, a test tues for C&S, finish shapes in space for Art, and catch up in Pre-Cal. Got my work cut out for me. Only thing to worry about is the 50 cards. Gotta work on my core... starting to think in track terms now. Geez. Maybe start lifting. Except I have no idea what to do.

Keep those project ideas coming!!

Camerafone is definitely "chill-music".

Things are cooling down... sortof.

So yea... still not caring about grades. I've got some physics, some korean, some apush, some comedy, and some math. All five core subjects. Geez. I think the work load has shut down the emotional part of my brain. It's just not responding to stimuli anymore.

So today, got some stuff done with the troop. more than most other senior patrol leaders actually. Feel pretty proud of myself. Only now, not so much. I gotta do an Eagle Project and I've been thinking of some stuff, and then my dad tells me there are Eagle projects available to help beautify Camp Ida Smith the girl scout camp. I don't know why it ticked me off, but it did. I just want to do something with more impact. If I did something for the church, I would rather have the satifaction of knowing that people appreciate it. Instead of having to make a crappy camp less crappy. I don't know. Feedback please.

Also, If anybody has any big projects they need done at a church, community center, etc. in the city, let me know. I'm trying to find things to avoid Ida Smith.

Contour is officially the best movie in the world. You should see it.